My core theology is that God exists, and that he is Good.
My life has gone through several seasons of struggle; deep desire to be right with God, and at the same time fear that He doesn’t exist or doesn’t care.
A few years ago, this led to a crisis of faith. I declared outright agnosticism, and questioned every aspect of my faith in God.
In some ways this was helpful; it led me to discard beliefs that were not founded on the gospel (Good News!!) of Jesus Christ.
In this season of crisis I slowly began to rebuild my core theology, based on what I knew in my heart to be true; sometimes because any alternative was just implausible.
The cornerstone of this theology is embodied in the incarnation of God, Immanuel, God With Us, Jesus Christ.
I have become convinced that God Is.
Any other reality is just implausible to me; as much as I’ve tried to question and doubt His existence, this has become a bedrock of my faith.
Building on my conviction of his existence, I began exploring his nature.
By definition, God is a (the) creator. It is not plausible to me that God would be irrational. To create and destroy on a whim is not rational, leading me to certainty that his actions are fully intentional. A rational, intentional God does not seem congruent with a God who would act in bad faith, or by half measures.
Therefore, given a rational God - a creator, I can only concieve that he creates with only good intent.
So, assuming a rational, prime mover, what would such a being intend toward it’s creation? Not harm. Not destruction. Not senseless pain.
Then what? I can only reasonably conclude that a complete, sovereign God would intend good, and would act to effect good.
Because of this progression of thought, and much pondering on my long daily commutes in the PDX metro area, I grew in, and have come to complete conviction, that God is Good.
As the reality of this began sinking in to my being, I felt hope rise up in me, and more than hope - love. Love for God who is unmoved by my doubt. Love for God who first loved me, and every person.
I’m far from a complete theology, but this cornerstone has led me back into faith in God.
I believe we can infer some of God’s nature by his creation. A God who is Good, and who creates with good intent, and whose creation seems utterly based on relationship and connection, must be seeking to connect with creation.
So I look for evidence of God reaching out to his creation. Of every “God story” I know about; Christianity, Islam, Buddhism, Animism, Ancestor Worship - only the story of incarnation, God clothing himself with flesh and living with us, God making a way for us to reach him, seems congruent with the nature of a Good God. This leads me to the third cornerstone of my faith: God wants to connect with man. God gave his son, Jesus Christ, in order to be reconciled with man!
These three foundations are just the beginning. I continue to learn more, and there is so much more I haven’t written down yet. Hopefully; more to come…